Sunday, October 11, 2009

thanks...





thanks to life
thanks to love
thanks to those who rise above
thanks for food
thanks for air
thanks for friends standing with me in prayer


thanks for grooves
thanks for tunes
thanks to those who create by the moon
thanks for now
thanks for then
thanks for the difference i see within
thanks for earth
thanks for sky
thanks for stars shining in your eyes
thanks for mountains
thanks for bees
thanks to the roaring, calming sea
thanks for ice
thanks for rain
thanks for water washing away pain
thanks for arms
thanks for legs
thanks to the body that helps me create
thanks to dancing
thanks to song
thanks to writing all night long
thanks for time
thanks for space
thanks for the penchant to interrelate
thanks for meetings
thanks for the glance
thanks for the radiant, ceremonial trance
thanks for blocks
thanks for chains
thanks for the courage to break free again
thanks for miracles
thanks for dreams
thanks for nothing is what it seems
thanks for you
thanks for me
thanks for life with no guarantees...

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Several excuses are always less convincing than one. ~Aldous Huxley


i don't have enough money, i am too old, i'm not hip enough, i don't have the coolest clothes, i don't have the right representation, i don't have the hippest music video, i don't have a d cup, my lips are too small, i've waited too long, i'm not sexy enough, it'll take too long, i'm gonna be too exposed, it may be risky, i'm not as good as..., i'll never be as well known as..., there's too much to do, it is overwhelming, everyone else is doing it and i can't, it doesn't feel safe, i don't have the drive that it takes, i don't have enough time, i'm not wired for it, i can't figure it all out before i do it, they may not like it, you may not like this post! i may not be able to deliver, i can't be right all the time, i can't control the outcome, i am too tired, i don't have enough energy, i can't fix it, i can't live up to my own standards...and on and on and on...

then...i remember...it's all about the heart, the passion, the soul, the love...the music. this inspires me to keep going...inspite of and because of the excuses...i see that these excuses are here to call me out of my past, beyond my patterns and to get on with living...because life, love and music is bigger than me, is bigger than what i can or cannot do or foresee...life is not about focusing on the excuses, life is about what i do along with the excuses...will i step through them and follow my passion? or will i be swallowed up by them and believe all the FEAR?

a good friend shared this with me recently...fear is:

F alse E vidence A ppearing R eal

my life is my own...what i do or be with it, and all my excuses, is up to me, not up to what my fears say or what someone else says, does or sees about me...i am responsible for the quality of my life, the passion, the inspiration, the expression and the love...in this space, life really begins...

will you join me?